How I overcame Depression.

Usually I don't post or write about this touchy topic but sometimes I think it needs to be said. A lot of people think its okay to say things like "I'm going to kill myself" or talk out loud about how they think they have a mental issue when they clearly don't. Growing up I noticed that I was always more mature than my other friends. I would take on big tasks and couldn't wait to grow up. But as I grew up, my life just became more hard and more dark. Since I was about 7 years old, I've been dealing with depression. I remember crying so much and not knowing why. Depression is like living in a dark hole and not seeing any sunlight. Its like not knowing how to get out of it and feeling like your trapped. Depression is not something you can diagnose on your own just because you're "feeling sad," its a real thing and a real big problem. I started going to therapy when I was probably 11 years old. After that, my depression went away for a few years and came back as of 2015 / 2016 when I made a few bad decisions and broke my own heart. I used to blame people for the way I felt, but it was actually just myself. In 2016 and early 2017, I hurt myself to make myself feel good (if that makes any sense). I would not go to school, lock myself in my room in the dark, and cry myself to sleep. I got into the wrong group of friends who lead me to make these bad choices and send me spiraling down into my dark hole once again. I eventually got out of the group and started to make my own decisions and become myself again. I started new medications and also changed different habits in my life and daily routine. It took a long time, but it was what I needed.

Eventually I learned to love my body, my scars, and all of my imperfections. Its possible to get better and its possible to love yourself again. Never reject therapy or help, it really does work. Its a long journey to get through, but you WILL get better I promise. Don't think about the past, its what always sets you back. Focus on right now, you're only a teenager once so enjoy it!! Who cares about that boy who hurt you? Who cares about what you want to be when you grow up? Who cares about those girls that hate you? And you know what, screw that class that you're doing bad in. Why would you want to stress when you are happy right now? Spread positivity, it only makes you more happy. And most importantly always love yourself unconditionally, don't let anyone tell you otherwise. :)